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Everything in its right place.
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[20 May 2007|02:46pm] |
I always just blog on myspace... but this feels more permanent.
Boundaries.
Do we really just want to cross the line because it's there?
They're everywhere, and they're necessary, but we never give them the respect they deserve. For the life of me I can't figure out why we're willing to sit and watch our values crumble over something that will be gone tomorrow. Why is it that we only want to do something when we know we shouldn't? Do we just have piss-poor self control? Or are the lines really there just to be crossed? I try to communicate them and enforce them, but I don't think I've been doing a good job lately. It's just too hard sometimes and I don't have the energy. It's easier to let things slip. Actually, it's just easier to do what I want to do.
After all, it's not all black and white.
My apartment is finished... or as finished as it will ever be. I'm glad to be in the city for the summer, but I'm missing Rendezvous, the Redbirds, the Friday night Main Street Art Walks... the friends... the family... my dad sent me a strange email this morning about how much he was going to miss me... I guess I just haven't really thought about the fact that I'll never live at home again. It doesn't really bother me... maybe that's because I'm not struggling to pay my rent right now. Come August, I may have a different attitude. No matter how I feel about it, Chicago is home until May 2008 at the earliest. Who knows where life will take me after that.
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[10 Jul 2006|01:14pm] |
I know there are trends in my taste... older... tall... usually skinny... somewhat funny/ comical/ intruiging... but the one that really always has done me in... is the guy who boasts a complete care-free spirit... a guy who knows how to be content with life.... but for some reason... these are the ones that turn out to be some of the most inconsiderate, immature, selfish and whiny babies i have ever had the pleasure of knowing.... true, the grass is always greener on the other side, but what the hell?
Five love languages....
Words of Affirmation
Receiving Gifts
Quality Time
Acts of Service
Physical Touch
I know what mine are...
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[20 Jun 2006|04:28pm] |
RED - ANGER
1. Are you currently mad at someone?
yes
2. Which of your family members has the worst temper
me or katie
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone?
yes
4. Does your face turn red when you're angry?
sometimes
5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell?
I'd say I'm pretty good at both
ORANGE- EXCITEMENT
1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you?
nope
2. Are you easily excited?
not really
3. What event is coming up that you're most excited about?
starting my internship at baptist memorial hospital
4. Which of your friends is most excitable?
devin maybe?
5. If you won a million dollars what would be your first thought?
that i could stop worrying
6. If you could have anything right now, what would it be?
a clear mind
YELLOW - SELF DISCOVERY
1. Name
Allison
2. Where were you born
Atlanata, Georgia
3. What's your main goal in life?
help myself by helping others
4. Do you want to have children?
yes, three or four
5. How do you want to die?
just like everyone else.... with no pain and no regrets
GREEN - OPINIONS
1. Gay marriage?
absolutely.
2. Lower the drinking age?
no
3. Capital Punishment?
I'm on the fence on this one.
4. Abortion?
This one too, although I don't think anyone is actually a fan of killing babies.... circumstances just suck sometimes....
5. Recycling?
yes
PURPLE - LOVE
1. Do you love someone?
a handful
2. Do you have a crush?
yes
3. Who is the best hugger that you know?
diana?
4. Do you believe in love at first sight?
no
Q&A
Q: How many beds were you in yesterday?
... 3.... mine, katies, my moms
Q: What colour shirt are you wearing?
black
Q: Name one thing that you do everyday.
drink diet dr. pepper
Q: How much cash do you have on you right now?
none! i rule!
Q: I can't wait till...?
FREAKIN FALL MAN
Q: Who got you to join Myspace?
wanting to leave notes for my sisters... no facebook yet
Q: Is Tom on your friends list?
yes
Q: Look to your left. What's there?
my bed... lots of clothes.. a cup with diet dr. pepper
Q: What website(s) do you visit the most?
myspace, webmail, ebaums tetris, cnn
Q: Do you have plants in your room?
no
Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
my tummy is killing me
Q: What city was your last taxi ride in?
chicago
Q: Do you own a picture phone?
nope
Q: Recent time you were really upset?
pretty much every day
Q: What are you listening to now?
the hummmmmmmmm of machinery
Q: Do you like it?
yes
Q: What do you look for in a relationship?
In general, someone that makes me happy and doesn't ask for more than they are willing to give.
Q: What irritates you about people?
people don't think sometimes, and they aren't very considerate.
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[04 Jun 2006|02:05pm] |
I'm in a really bad mood. And I'm really stressed out.
and i wrote lots more and just deleted it.
some things will never change.
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[03 Apr 2006|04:33pm] |
Every once in a while
when it's cold and rainy outside
and I'm really stressed
I get these bad stomach aches
like the ones from 2nd grade
when I wanted a hug from mom
and a nap on the couch.
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| Times like these..... |
[26 Mar 2006|11:43pm] |
No, I do not know where I will be this summer.
No, I am not engaged.
No, I do now know where I'm living next year.
Yes, I will know in about a week.
No, school is not going well right now.
No, Hannah does not know where she will be going next year.
Yes, I am happy.
Any other questions?
Love you all. It's nice to hear from old friends.
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"Courage doesnt always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow."
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[01 Feb 2006|10:39am] |
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[10 Nov 2005|12:31am] |
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I have a hard time letting go
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[27 Oct 2005|03:30pm] |
This is funny. YOU fill in the blanks about ME and send it back to ME.
But
first send a blank one out to all your friends, including me, so we can return the favor to you.
Your name:
Take a stab at my middle name : ______________
When is my b-day? _______________
Where did we meet? _____________________
Do I believe in God? _____________________
How long have you known me? _________________
Do I smoke? __________________
What was your first impression of me upon meeting? ____
Color of my eyes: ________________
Do I have any siblings? how many? ____________________
What's one of my favorite things to do? ___________________
Do you remember one of the first things I said to you?________
What's my favorite type of music? ____________________
Am I shy or out going? _____________________
Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules? __________________
What's your favorite memory of me? ______________________
Any special talents: __________________________
If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be?
If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what one thing would I bring?_________________________
Am I the kind of person that would stick up for the underdog, or bully?____________________________
My worst quality? _____________________________
Do I like Coke or Pepsi? _________________________
Am I liberal, or conservative? __________________________
Is there an evil twin living in me? _________________________
If you could change my FIRST name, what name would you chose for me? __________________________
Why do you think I was placed on this earth? ______________
Do I drink alcohol? ________________________
Do I have a crush on you?_____________________
Whats' my fav. feature about myself?__________
Have u ever wanted to kiss me? __________
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| The things we are able to bring ourselves to bitch about amaze me...... |
[27 Oct 2005|02:52pm] |
So things change... cry me a river... maybe once you realize there are people who don't know if they'll get bread or water today, you'll quit your whining... there's more to life than this emo bullshit.
And why is it that no one can try to do something to FIX their problems? If you do feel that a situation is soooooo terrible that it merits continuous whining... why are you not ACTIVELY TRYING TO FIND A SOLUTION INSTEAD OF BITCHING ALL THE DAMN TIME?
Just a thought.
I'm a big fan of taking action.
I also do not like people who think they are noticeably more important than others because of their perceived intelligence, or people who think there are ANY differences in us that make one person's problems any more complex than the rest. There is no such thing as "being an individual."
I am also extremely disenchanted with the use of "memphrica." it is one of the most common forms of passive racism today. Do you even realize what you are saying by using it? I mean you can't possibly think it's positive... it's not comical or cute, it's disgusting.
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[07 Oct 2005|12:27am] |
Go to Google, type "(Your Name) needs" in quotes, and post the first ten results.
Allison needs a divorce.
Allison needs more good farmers to raise corn, wheat, rye, oats, barley, peanuts, cattle, hogs and sheep, all of which do well here.
If Allison needs his member supported, then I think we can stop this discussion now.
Allison needs to have a good thermal conduction path between the battery boxes; perhaps by adding a metal bar to connect them.
Allison needs a Big Sister to give her encouragement that she's a special person.
Allison needs to understand how her students access the Web and what special needs they may have.
Allison needs to do a ten minute scene.
Allison needs to get involved with the community and put on the face of a European company.
Allison needs to put gas in the car, go to the bank, do the gardening, run the laundry, buy groceries and return a half dozen phone calls.
Allison needs to get info about the category heading "Infrastructure" from the Selection Committee.
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| I had to as well.... |
[01 Sep 2005|09:06am] |
1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written.
Have fun with it, eh?
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[28 Aug 2005|06:13pm] |
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I'm needing some help. Someone to hold my hand. Don't know if I'm gonna make it out of this one.
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[02 Aug 2005|04:05pm] |
I'm not afraid
Of anything in this world
There's nothing you can throw at me
That I haven't already heard
I'm just trying to find
A decent melody
A song that I can sing
In my own company
I never thought you were a fool
But darling look at you
You gotta stand up straight
Carry your own weight
These tears are going nowhere baby
You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And now you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
I will not forsake
The colors that you bring
The nights you filled with fireworks
They left you with nothing
I am still enchanted
By the light you brought to me
I listen through your ears
Through your eyes I can see
And you are such a fool
To worry like you do
I know it's tough
And you can never get enough
Of what you don't really need now
My, oh my
You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
Oh love, look at you now
You've got yourself stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
I was unconscious, half asleep
The water is warm 'til you discover how deep
I wasn't jumping, for me it was a fall
It's a long way down to nothing at all
You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if our way should falter
Along the stony pass
And if the night runs over
And if the day won't last
And if your way should falter
Along this stony pass
It's just a moment
This time will pass
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[30 Jul 2005|05:21am] |
Ya know what really chaps my ass?
The door handle.... on the passenger's side car door... is broken. And will probably stop working one day soon. Read: don't try to rip the handle off and then tell me it doesn't work... and then let me look over and have to tell you the door is locked!! That's why it's broken.... because people are idiots! If the door is locked, ripping at the handle won't open it... popping the lock might help! So stop being stupid or stop riding in the honda!!
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